Every morning for the past 5 weeks, I have been awakened by my stupid AHBL. I will be sleeping soundly, and sometime between 5 am and 7 am, it starts banging pans in my ear and screaming: Your life sucks right now and it has for a long time!!!
It’s a miserable way to wake up.
But today there was the slightest shift. Today I woke up just on the verge of pissed. Yeah. For the slightest moment, when the banging started, I got a little mad. I lost the sensation almost immediately to a frustrating, familiar wave of compassion and confusion and grief and probably just plain old denial.
But for a moment, I felt some actual old-fashioned anger.
I’m not sure what that means, but it probably means something.
by julie rybarczyk | shorts and longs | the both and
